10:35 a.m. - 2007-01-31
Good Morning?
Good Morning�how are you? That�s good to hear� How am I you say? �oh I�m good� Thank you for asking. What? Well since you are taking The time to ask me how I�m really doing� And knowing you won�t understand One word of the truth that is about to Flow from my lips� I�ll warn you. So that your spirit will not be awakened to The reality of things that lie Before you� Ready to strike and kill. Because after all�ignorance is bliss. You stand before me� Inquiring about how I am doing� I bet you have no clue that at this very moment I am at war. I am fighting for my life. I am up against bigger foes than Osama ever was. I am up against principalities and things That you could never see or comprehend. I�m fighting against a battalion Of things that would rejoice at my demise. I�m warring in another realm as you smile And pretend to really hear what I�m screaming to you� Silently screaming to you. Can�t you see it in my eyes? Can�t you hear my soul crying out? Can�t you feel the uncertainty in my gait? Of course you can�t. And why should I expect you to? You had no idea when you greeted me That I would put all that at the back of my mind To smile at you� And wish you a good day In return for the platitudes that you provide me daily. You have no idea that the same Powers that killed my Savior Seek to kill me too. You have no idea that while I nod And smile at your qualms about where To eat lunch today� That I am being hunted� My fears are being discovered And used against me to create A wall that I could not possibly jump� Its like a right now Rapture� And there is no way out. This is my reality. Warfare while I sleep. While you slumber� I am standing in the gap. Getting attacked. Beaten. Mentally manipulated by things And people And places And spirits of those things That once evoked a feeling of love And hope And pride And unconditional ness. While you dream of that new car Your getting soon� I walk through the valleys barefoot In broad daylight Through the enemy�s territory� Boldly. Unable to hide� Taking the blows and absorbing the pain� Tucking it away inside myself� To protect myself from myself. What your eyes have read May seem to have taken years and years� But be not deceived� These are my realities� Surreptitiously served to me with a scalding hot spoon And held against my lips Until I feel it. Really feel it. And then� Another spoonful is given� And I know its coming� So I brace myself for the pain That is about to ensue. So� How am I doing you ask? I�m fine. Thank you for asking.
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